I feel as I have abandoned this world. I have been so lost these days. So much on my mind. I’ve tried to make things better but they only seem to get worse. And when things seem to go my way there are little clues that tell me it’s not going to work out. I need to slip back into the world of imagination…a place where every thing seems to go right….where there are no flaws…a place where I can be happy and not feel the sins of life approaching me. I just want to be able to have a real smile cross my face for once. This fake smile does me no justice….I pause for a moment to see if there’s any true happiness hidden…but there isn’t…I need to return….